Thursday, February 10, 2011

I Want To Change Myself

By: Lisa
I firstly I should be joyful for entertainment, instead I am not happy. Perhaps others are absolutely disappointed about me.
Possibly, I have to accept everything around me. I am still like before when I meet some miserable things, I will lose my temper. I am useless. He is wrong but I am not right before him.
After that things, I think I did something wrong. The consequence is unpredictable. Others will see me in a wired way. I can not play with them any longer. I am not intelligent and I really do not know how to handle my emotion.
The life is always not gone be ok and I always get angry. I recognize I should not have done something when I was enraged. It is my character that I never think the result before act. I am not good at saving the situation and always want to avoid them. I truly want to change myself better.
My father is correct. I should not be similar to my mother. But I was with my mother since I was a baby. Who else should I be like? I see my future from my mother. I really do not want to be the one I see. I want to change myself.
I think I fritter away the past twenty years. I hope I can change myself after the birthday of 21. I hope I would be converted into an smart woman.
Only this situation makes me think so much. I never have time to think about my future before. Now my family is in a bad state and this make me have no choice to be concerned about how I live in the next time. I will always ask myself what I want to do.
I do not know what I can do in this society. I am not beautiful, bad figure, no high education and even without high intelligent.
I am out of this society. I am almost given up by my family. My father has high expectation on me, but I always make him disappointed. I really want to hear his prize on me, but it disappeared several years ago. Now what I can see is his serious face without any smile. His serous and critical words are always around me. So does my mother. I have to go through everyday in the criticizing. I have no choice but hiding in my room. I really hate myself why I am so stupid.
My 22 birthday is coming around. I do not know how to pass the day. However, I will work hard and let my parents lead a better life.
Destiny, I will challenge you. I want to change the fate and myself.
I am on the way.


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About the Author:
I am not an intelligent girl but I am trying my best to let my parents lead a better life. They are my best love. I manage to buy something for them. I find there is a perfect gift for them. That is Tiffany jewelry us. I believe my mother will love the sterling sliver jewelry

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